I really truly hate that I’m writing this post right now but I have been pushing the inevitable for a little while now. I’m going on a hiatus from now until June 11th. Around a week after I take my last exam. It’s two months. It’s a long time. The longest I have ever been away from this blog. PLEASE DON’T FORGET ABOUT ME. I still have a couple guest posts going up but aside from that, I won’t be posting anything. And for a few reasons.
If you read my march wrap-up, you know that March was a very sucky month for me health wise, I was in pain for most of it and that left me bed bound, which means that I fell behind on school. Like, a lot. And that is stressing me out of my mind, I’m always anxious and on edge because I just have too many thing to do, blogging included and with how much studying I have to catch up on, I can’t do it all, I need to spend most my days studying if I don’t want studying for my exam to be an anxiety hell pit (which it always is, but I’m trying to minimize the damage). So Something had to go to keep my sanity. And blogging is that something.
In addition to that, all the built up stress and pressure made blogging not fun for me anymore. I started thinking of it as “have to” instead of “want to” and we all know that’s not good. At all. Where I’m at right now, I dread writing up posts, I do have ideas, and inspiration but it’s the will to sit in front of my computer spending two hours (I don’t have) on each post that stresses me out. Because I always have that little voice at the back of my head saying “this is time you’re wasting you could be spending on your neurology notes, or working on that genetics graph” and yikes. That voice is right and I must follow it.
The fact that I’m now dreading blogging is also affecting my reading, I’m always wanting to finish books faster, to write reviews and then thinking about what book to review next and read that one instead of reading the books I really want to read. And the books I really want to read right now are all favourites. So rereads. So books I’ve already reviewed. I’m going to take advantage of this hiatus to read books for myself, depending on my mood to try and find that pleasure in reading again. Which I’m sure will be back as soon as the pressure is gone.
I’m going to stop rambling here. I think I’m going to reply to comments and keep blog-hopping when I have down time while I’m gone because the only thing I have an issue with a the moment is the actual act of writing posts. And if you’re interested in seeing more of me, follow me on Instagram @wordwoonders because I’ll still be active on there.
Love y’all! And hope you all still be around when I’m back ❤