To sum-up: May 2019

To Sum up

Hello friends!

May was so freaking hectic and not gonna lie, as fun as some of it was, I’m very glad it’s over. I am very burnt out and tired and you’ll get to know why in this post, so YAY?


Me *writing this wrap up*: WHAT EVEN HAPPENED THIS MONTH? 

Well, Ramadan was this month and…as much as I usually love, I just was not in a good place this year and it messed with my sleep and my mental health (it’s not the fasting as much as it was just the general rythme of life) so I kinda feel bad about saying this but I’m glad it’s over. I’m looking forward to being on a good schedule again that allows me to be productive and not slacking, sluggish and sleepy all day long. Especially since there are so many things I wanted to do but didn’t have the energy for and that sucked.

Medical students in Morocco are on our (almost) third month of striking and I feel like that contributed a lot to my mental state because we just want the overall condition of our heath system as well as studies to get better but it feels like we’re not getting anywhere and our exams are on the 10th but we’re boycotting those which is adding to my anxiety and it’s just a whole mess. I tried to keep up with my studying at home but this is making it very hard as I have no clear vision as to what I’m studying for or things will get solved. 

All this means that all my time was spent blogging, and let me tell you, I’M BURNT OUT! If you haven’t seen them yet, I had a lot feature called Muslim Voices Rise Up with my friend, Adiba, and I spent so much time responding to emails, coordinating, scheduling posts, and we also hosted a chat and are currently hosting a giveaway, so it was just… a lot. It was very rewarding and incredibly humbling but the burn out was inevitable, especially since I didn’t reduce the usual content until the last week of may when the burn out didn’t give me any other choice.

On the topic of Muslim Voices Rise Up, I don’t want to sound ungrateful or like it’s something I regret (because I super don’t), it’s an experience I’d redo in the blink of an eye no matter how hard it was because getting to see so many Muslim folks’ perspectives about their own experiences navigating life was amazing. How different parts of their lives intersect with their faith and makes them do and see thing differently from non-Muslim folks, but most importantly from other Muslim folks. This feature just further showed how our community is the farthest thing possible from being a monolith and no matter how you practice or experience things, it’s beautiful and we’re all valid. I shed quite a few tears writing and/or formatting some of the posts. And I will forever be grateful for this whole journey that made me not only grow stronger in my faith but closer to my community. You can find all the posts here, with topics like what Islam means to different people, anti-blackness, mental health, queerness, diaspora, etc… It’s really worth a check

The one genuinely good, 100% highlight of this month that made me really happy is LAUNCHING A BOOKTUBE (pls subscribe to me, i’m cute), I’m having so much fun filming and editing videos. And for someone who has huge debilitating public speaking anxiety, speaking in front of a camera is actually helping loosen me up a bit so it’s an all around positive experience. Anyway, I feel like this is LONG ENOUGH, so I won’t include my book haul, I got some amazing books, which was another blessing this month, for that you’ll have to wait for the video coming at some point in the next week.


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I read 10 books this month which is a goddamn miracle considering that I read only two of them in the first two weeks. But this reading month still felt meh all over if I’m being honest, which was probably because of my own mental state and stress but oh well.

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You can find my YARC 2019 progress post here. I read 2 BOOKS that fit the challenge this month!


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Also, PLEASE, don’t forget to check out the Muslim Voices Rise Up posts HERE (that I’m too lazy to link one by one again in this post)


LOTS OF READING AND RELAXING FOR ME! Well not really relaxing from life, but more from blogging. As I said, I’m deeply burnt out blogging wise, which might only take a week to go away or it might take all of June, and for that reason, I won’t be following my posting schedule to the letter, I’ll try to get *maybe* one review up each week in addition to the #DiverseBookBloggersDiscuss posts that will still be going up each Sunday. Hopefully, at some point during the month, I’ll get over this and will go back to my normal posting schedule as I slide back into my normal routine and being my normal self. But if not, that’s okay and I’ll be back in the full swing of things in July!

That being said I’m planning to read LOTS, in fact, as of right now I already finished two books and started two more so it’s safe to say I’m on a ROLL. I just want to use this month to focus on me and my reading and just taking that extra step of taking care of myself and paying attention to what my body and mind are telling me. And hopefully still studying a bit? I ideally want to catch up on comments and everyone’s posts that I missed while being caught up in my own blog. I’ll also keep making booktube videos, as I’m planning to do weekly vlogs for June, oh and… HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!!! 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈 And happy reading all queer books for me hehe! Speaking of which…


This month’s TBR is a bit different and this is hopefully how I’ll be doing all my TBRs from now on, in video format! So enjoy my overambitious TBR of 13 books. If you’ve been following my blog, you know that my TBRs are usually half that. Yikes.

That’s it until next time.

Did you read any of these books? What did you think of them? What books did you read this month?

Oh! And if you have any posts you think I should check out, leave them in the comments.

Hope you enjoyed, write to you soon.


30 thoughts on “To sum-up: May 2019

  1. wow, your month has been super jam packed. it’s really interesting to read an inside perspective about the striking in morocco, and even though you’ve been stressed, it’s nice to hear that you’ve still been okay. it’s just amazing you were still able to update so often, what was your favorite post this month? also, i just subscribed to your booktube! i’m always looking for new booktubers of color to follow!

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    • Thank you for suscribing ❤ My favourite post in May is probably the one with my participartion in MVRU all about mental health and mental illness in the muslim community. It was so refreshing and cathartic to chat with other Muslim folks who struggle with mental illnesses.


  2. Oooh, congrats on starting a booktube channel! It always seems like such a huge commitment and it takes a lot of skill, so I could never! 😂 But I hope you have a lot of fun while doing it!

    I have been meaning to read Bruja Born, and a few other books on your list! Hopefully this month will be a good reading month for us both! And if not, I hope you at least get to relax a bit!

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    • Thank youuu ❤ It doesn't take as much skill as you'd think hahah I started off knowing nothing about editing and was a nervous wreck in my first few videos but I made it work!! It's super time consuming though!

      I hope you had a good reading month!

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  3. I hope that June will be good to you, you’ve been doing so much this past May and working so hard and delivering and hosting such an incredible amount of blog posts and guest posts for your special event and booktube and everything, I honestly don’t know how you do it all, you deserve to relax and read and take it easier, too. I hope that June will be good and relaxing, sending you lots of love x

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  4. oh gosh same with Ramadan. having no energy sucks bc i literally cant be productive and it feels so bad. :(( and ahh im so proud of you for hosting Muslim voices rise up! it was such a great project but i hope you feel less burnt out in june. sending you all the love. (and yes everyone should subscribe to ur booktube bc u ARE cute and that’s just facts)

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  5. YEEE OMG good job on reading so many books in May especially since you read 2 books in the first half woahhh. Eight books in two weeks?? That’s amazing ❤ Also, I will forever be proud of you for all of the work you did in your Muslims Rise Up feature that's absolutely AMAZING and such a huge amount of work that you did!! You should take some time to rest, remember that we always love you 24/7!!! Everyone should subscribe to your booktube you are SO cute.

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  6. Fadwa you are literally a goddess HOW DO YOU STAY ON TOP OF LIFE AND BLOG STUFF AND EVERYTHING? Anyways, I hope you can fight the burn out and take a break this June! I’m so happy you enjoyed Middlegame so much and your review made me doubly excited to read the book!

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  7. You have been busy! I hope your feeling less burnt out soon. I watched your book tub video and it was good. You have some really good skills to make one of those videos. I can’t make one of those videos. I hope June is a good reading month for you.

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  8. Aahh I hope you’re really able to relax and spend more time for yourself this month, Fadwa!! You deserve it ❤ And I d0n't know why I hadn't added Middlegame to my Goodreads TBR until now since I've heard so many people say amazing things about it? But knowing you loved it definitely makes me even surer that I will as well! And I am SO SO PROUD of you for starting a booktube!!! You're right — you're so cute in your videos and I love watching them 💖

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  9. The whole on strike thing would stress me the hell out. Its for the right things but you also want to graduate at some and what will happen next. 100% understand that. I hope June will be a nicer month for you. With relaxing and great books! ❤ All the hugs to you.

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  11. I JUST finished With the Fire on High and LOVED it so much. I loved that Acevedo wrote a teen mother main character. I don’t typically enjoy YA contemporary, but I’ll read anything that Elizabeth Acevedo writes! I cannot wait to see what she writes next.


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