May was so freaking hectic and not gonna lie, as fun as some of it was, I’m very glad it’s over. I am very burnt out and tired and you’ll get to know why in this post, so YAY?
Me: I DID SO MUCH THIS MONTH
Me *writing this wrap up*: WHAT EVEN HAPPENED THIS MONTH?
Well, Ramadan was this month and…as much as I usually love, I just was not in a good place this year and it messed with my sleep and my mental health (it’s not the fasting as much as it was just the general rythme of life) so I kinda feel bad about saying this but I’m glad it’s over. I’m looking forward to being on a good schedule again that allows me to be productive and not slacking, sluggish and sleepy all day long. Especially since there are so many things I wanted to do but didn’t have the energy for and that sucked.
Medical students in Morocco are on our (almost) third month of striking and I feel like that contributed a lot to my mental state because we just want the overall condition of our heath system as well as studies to get better but it feels like we’re not getting anywhere and our exams are on the 10th but we’re boycotting those which is adding to my anxiety and it’s just a whole mess. I tried to keep up with my studying at home but this is making it very hard as I have no clear vision as to what I’m studying for or things will get solved.
All this means that all my time was spent blogging, and let me tell you, I’M BURNT OUT! If you haven’t seen them yet, I had a lot feature called Muslim Voices Rise Up with my friend, Adiba, and I spent so much time responding to emails, coordinating, scheduling posts, and we also hosted a chat and are currently hosting a giveaway, so it was just… a lot. It was very rewarding and incredibly humbling but the burn out was inevitable, especially since I didn’t reduce the usual content until the last week of may when the burn out didn’t give me any other choice.
On the topic of Muslim Voices Rise Up, I don’t want to sound ungrateful or like it’s something I regret (because I super don’t), it’s an experience I’d redo in the blink of an eye no matter how hard it was because getting to see so many Muslim folks’ perspectives about their own experiences navigating life was amazing. How different parts of their lives intersect with their faith and makes them do and see thing differently from non-Muslim folks, but most importantly from other Muslim folks. This feature just further showed how our community is the farthest thing possible from being a monolith and no matter how you practice or experience things, it’s beautiful and we’re all valid. I shed quite a few tears writing and/or formatting some of the posts. And I will forever be grateful for this whole journey that made me not only grow stronger in my faith but closer to my community. You can find all the posts here, with topics like what Islam means to different people, anti-blackness, mental health, queerness, diaspora, etc… It’s really worth a check
The one genuinely good, 100% highlight of this month that made me really happy is LAUNCHING A BOOKTUBE (pls subscribe to me, i’m cute), I’m having so much fun filming and editing videos. And for someone who has huge debilitating public speaking anxiety, speaking in front of a camera is actually helping loosen me up a bit so it’s an all around positive experience. Anyway, I feel like this is LONG ENOUGH, so I won’t include my book haul, I got some amazing books, which was another blessing this month, for that you’ll have to wait for the video coming at some point in the next week.
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I read 10 books this month which is a goddamn miracle considering that I read only two of them in the first two weeks. But this reading month still felt meh all over if I’m being honest, which was probably because of my own mental state and stress but oh well.
- Bruja Born – Empowered, slightly creepy, drags a little.
- Middlegame – An absolute masterpiece of a book.
- Dealing in Dreams – Amazing premise, needs more pages.
- Going Off-Script – Adorable, sapphic activists, kickass.
- With the Fire on High – Made my heart explode with happiness.
- Rebel – Great first historical romance read.
- The Proposal – Cutsie, fun and fast romance.
- Not you Back Up – Amazing aroace rep, filler book.
- Destiny for Love Arranged – Made my brain bleed, NOPE.
- Prince Charming – Objectively okay, lacks some substance.
You can find my YARC 2019 progress post here. I read 2 BOOKS that fit the challenge this month!
book title = review
- A Prince on Paper – Alyssa Cole
- We Hunt the Flame – Hafsah Faizal
- Middlegame – Seanan McGuire
- Going Off-script – Jen Wilde
- Not your Back Up – C.B. Lee
- May 1st: To sum-up: April 2019.
- May 5th: #DiverseBookBloggersDiscuss : The Rise of Diversity + Book recommendations.
- May 6th: 2018 releases I still need to catch up on.
- May 12th: #DiverseBookBloggersDiscuss : Jew-erasure in Fandom.
- May 13th: YA books with “heavy” topics are necessary.
- May 15th: Down the TBR Hole #4.
- May 19th: #DiverseBookBloggersDiscuss: Jewish Book Recommendations.
- May 20th: Hello Anxiety, my old friend. – #MentalHealthAwarenessMonth
- May 24th: FOUL IS FAIR by Hannah Capin – Excerpt + Cover Gush
- May 26th: #DiverseBookBloggersDiscuss: The “Hidden Gems”: Why are F/F romances so hard to find?
Also, PLEASE, don’t forget to check out the Muslim Voices Rise Up posts HERE (that I’m too lazy to link one by one again in this post)
LOTS OF READING AND RELAXING FOR ME! Well not really relaxing from life, but more from blogging. As I said, I’m deeply burnt out blogging wise, which might only take a week to go away or it might take all of June, and for that reason, I won’t be following my posting schedule to the letter, I’ll try to get *maybe* one review up each week in addition to the #DiverseBookBloggersDiscuss posts that will still be going up each Sunday. Hopefully, at some point during the month, I’ll get over this and will go back to my normal posting schedule as I slide back into my normal routine and being my normal self. But if not, that’s okay and I’ll be back in the full swing of things in July!
That being said I’m planning to read LOTS, in fact, as of right now I already finished two books and started two more so it’s safe to say I’m on a ROLL. I just want to use this month to focus on me and my reading and just taking that extra step of taking care of myself and paying attention to what my body and mind are telling me. And hopefully still studying a bit? I ideally want to catch up on comments and everyone’s posts that I missed while being caught up in my own blog. I’ll also keep making booktube videos, as I’m planning to do weekly vlogs for June, oh and… HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!!! 🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈 And happy reading all queer books for me hehe! Speaking of which…
This month’s TBR is a bit different and this is hopefully how I’ll be doing all my TBRs from now on, in video format! So enjoy my overambitious TBR of 13 books. If you’ve been following my blog, you know that my TBRs are usually half that. Yikes.
That’s it until next time.
Did you read any of these books? What did you think of them? What books did you read this month?
Oh! And if you have any posts you think I should check out, leave them in the comments.
Hope you enjoyed, write to you soon.