To sum-up: April 2020 + May TBR

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Hello friends!

I have no grasp whatsoever on the concept of time anymore, is it night? day? has it been a month? a week? TWO HUNDRED YEARS? I don’t know. Do you?


Should I just copy and paste the paragraph from March oooor?

All jokes aside, I have been coping with this whole situation a lot better than I thought I would. While mental health is up and down and some days are very hard, it’s mostly steadily on the neutral slightly up side of the spectrum so I am very grateful about that and can’t really complain. Some physical symptoms of my anxiety have been acting up though, so eventhough I don’t *feel* anxious, I know I am because it’s manifesting in other ways. Ways I’m not really fond of, but oh well. It is what it is, I can’t have it all.

I went out once (1) in April for grocery shopping, because we need this special permission paper to even step outside the house and I only got mine halfway through the month, plus my mom still have to work so she’d rather do the shopping since she’s already “exposed”. That trip out was good for me though, because after grocery shopping I just kind of…got lost driving and listening to music in the little streets of my neighborhood and the weather was really nice. So I obviously spent the month the only way I could, reading and creating content. Which I’ve been feeling very inspired and excited to do!

I’ve also taken up cooking and baking (especially in Ramadan) which I enjoy a lot, especially since there are some recipes I’ve been meaning to try but never had time to. And also cleaning, I’ve been aggressively cleaning multiple times a week. But mostly I read. And read. And read. I read a lot.


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So…I uh…read 20 books this month? with a total of 6611 pages? Don’t ask me how that happened because even I don’t understand. I’ve never read this much in a month in recent memory, I’m not even sure I’ve ever read this much ever in my life, but I’m happy with it? Because I read quite a few really good books. Of course I had some disappointments, but it was overall a really good reading month.

  • The Empire of Gold – I’m still not sure I’m ready to talk about this book. The conclusion to my favorite trilogy of all time. I just??? I loathed some it, adored some of it, but the ending was better than I could have imagined. It wrapped up exactly the way it should have.
  • The Worst Best Man – After the trauma EoG put me through, this book was a balm to my soul, it made me emotional, made laugh -I laughed a lot- and made me root for the couple like no other.
  • Eight Perfect Murders – This was…a let down. The premise sounded phenomenal: A serial killer basing his murders on books from a list of perfect murders?? Sign me up! But the execution and reveal were lackluster and I was quite frankly bored.
  • Confessions – Now this one delivered. This was a deeply fucked up psychological thriller, but not in the ways you expect it to be. You never know what’s about to happen next. Confessions is a phenomenal exploration of the human psych.
  • Clap When You Land – This book tore me apart and put me back together. Acevedo is back with another stunning story written in verse all about grief and sisterhood, and it’s filled with emotion to the brim, so much that it overwhelmed me at times.
  • Perv – This book was…a journey. It was dramatic, ridiculous, over the top, but very sexy as well. And it REALLY stuck with me. I find myself thinking about it fairly often and ended up having a great time with it and enjoying it.
  • Tikka Chance on Me – It was okay. I liked it enough but it forgettable and way too short for what it was trying to do. The author tried to include too much in too little page space and as a result the romance was overshadowed.
  • Act Like it – I really liked how this one surrounded stage actors and as a result was as dramatic as you’d expect it to be. The romance also took its time and was well crafted, but what made me enjoy it less is that the hero was an asshole and the way his behavior was explained just didn’t make sense to me at all.
  • Stripped – This book gave me a shot of serotonin straight to the brain, no short cuts. The ending was a bit of a mess that was thrown in and wrapped up too quickly but the rest was a delight. It was sexy, cute, fun and got me invested in the couple. That’s all I can ask for.
  • The Naturals – My friend, Sara, has been trying to get me to read this one for years so I finally caved and did it. I gotta say I did NOT regret it. It was pretty predictable but in a way where you know the clues were layed out properly. And it was really fun to follow. So I’m definitely continuing the series.
  • My Sister the Serial Killer – This book is NOT a thriller, no matter what people tell you. It’s a satirical, slice of life book about a girl whose sister is a serial killer. Not gonna lie, the satirical part flew over my head and I was just disinterested and failed to understand the point of this book.
  • The Boyfriend Project – Another let down. This one stung though, because it was one of my anticipated releases. The romance was just not it, no chemistry and not developed enough. One of my pet peeves is also authors writing sex scenes without naming genitals. And guess what? Yeah.
  • All Boys Aren’t Blue – This YA memoir absolutely blew me away. It’s George M. Johnson’s story growing up Black and queer in the US. It’s both heartwarming and heartbreaking, anecdotal and factual. It’s the perfect balance of everything. And mandatory reading for everyone.
  • Beyond Shame – This was WILD, and not always in a good way. There was so much happening, so much sex especially which I didn’t dislike but I did have some issues with the dubious consent in some scenes and that prevented me from lking it as much as I wanted.
  • Timekeeper – This is the first book on my “Best Friend chooses me TBR” list that I pick up this year. Although the concept was super interesting, a romance that was rushed and that I didn’t care for overshadowed all of that so I didn’t love it as much as I expected. It was just okay for me.
  • Front Desk – After Timekeeper, I immediately decided to pick another book from that list, and this one I absolutely adored. It was so sweet but also hard hitting, it made my heart full and also made me cry. And it absolutely put me in a middle grade I’m currently still in.
  • Girl Gone Viral – The first half of this was a lot stronger than the second, it dragged a bit and didn’t have as much pining as I wanted. But the second half was so sweet, soft and tender, it made me really happy.
  • Other Words for Home – This was such a beautiful middle grade story of identity, family, hope, making a home away from home and how difficult that can be when you didn’t even want to leave your home to begin with.
  • Amal Unbound – How does Aisha Saeed manage to break my heart with a middle grade story too? This book is about bravery even when you’re scared, about doing the right thing even when think it can cost you, and I feel like it has more than a lesson in its folds for the kids who will read it.
  • Girl, Serpent, Thorn – Listen. This is a Persian mythology inspired fairytale about a girl whose touch is poisonous and teeters on the edge of villainy the whole time. It’s also sapphic and has monster girlfriends, what else do you need? I must admit it was too convenient in some bits but I forgive it for everything it did right.


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I mean…we’re still stuck at home, so not much, probably.

My booktube‘s one year anniversary is on the 11th and I’m a bit in disbelief over the fact that it’s already been a year. I feel like I only started a couple months ago but nope. A year. It’s been a journey and I’m really grateful with how much this has helped with my paralyzing public speaking anxiety. I mean, I’m still terrified. But it doesn’t feel quite insurmountable anymore. I’m also almost at 2K subscribers on there so!! If the two coincide I’ll be combining them and doing both a Q&A and a giveaway, if not, I’ll be doing a Q&A for the anniversary and save the giveaway for whenever I reach that milestone. But it would mean a lot to me if the two happen at the same time, so if you’re not subscribed already, consider it pretty please?

If you have any questions for the Q&A, leave them down below!!

There’s also something else happening over there in May. Something BIG. I will be hosting one of the Launch events for Adiba Jaigirdar’s THE HENNA WARS and I’ll be live with both Adiba and Leah Johnson, author of the upcoming YOU SHOULD SEE ME IN A CROWN, celebrating the release and talking about all things sapphic on the 15th at 6:30PM EST, so you definitely want to subscribe and click the notification bell if you don’t want to miss out on that. An international giveaway of the book may or may not be happening as well.



That’s it until next time.

Did you read any of these books? What did you think of them? What books did you read this month?

Oh! And if you have any posts you think I should check out, leave them in the comments.

Hope you enjoyed, write to you soon.





18 thoughts on “To sum-up: April 2020 + May TBR

  1. i see you had an amazing month reading-wise?? i’m soo happy for you!! i hope may is even better!!
    and i’m so glad you liked The Worst Best Man! i loved it so much too! it was sweet and cute but also raw and hurtful in some parts, i enjoyed it a lot.
    and i’m so excited to read Clap When You Land! i heard nothing but great stuff about it!
    i also just received my physical copies of The City of Brass + The Kingdom of Copper so i’m likely gonna reread The City of Brass and then (FINALLY) read the rest in preparation for The Empire of Gold!
    anyway, this is a long comment, i really hope you have a WONDERFUL may reading-wise and life-wise. amazing post! ❤️


  2. Yes for Act like it! I love the London celebrities series! I only have the newest book to read! I definitely feel it’s an under hyped series so I’m excited to see it being read by others!!


  3. I’m so glad to see that more people are reading The Naturals! When I first read it I felt the same way as you, but they’re such fun books and the concept is really interesting as well. Glad you liked it!


  4. I have an Arc of Girl, Serpent, Thorn and am glad u loved it!! Glad u had such a great reading month! 20 books is amazing! Great wrap up 💛


  5. I enjoyed Act Like it too! Loved the banter and everything that involved the stage life!! It was a great debut novel!


  6. I’m incredibly jealous that you’ve already read Clap When You Land!!! Also, you’re a freaking rock star for having read 20 books! I thought my 12 were awesome haha. I’m super excited for you to continue with the Naturals series! 😁


  7. I am reading Candle and the Flame. I am enjoying it so far and I hope you do too. 20 books read in one month…WOW! Over 6000 pages read. I have no words to your achievement. You are very well read.


  8. I felt the exact same way about My Sister the Serial Killer. The marketing for that was just off. I didn’t find the satire at all impressive but maybe I just didn’t get it.

    I’m glad to see a review of Girl Serpent Thorn, tho. It recently came on my radar.


  9. You sold me on Girl Serpent Thorn, hopefully I get to read it someday! And your words on Perv made me curious about it, thinking about checking it out. Hope you have a great May!!


  10. So glad to know I’m not the only one who rejoices at a chance to drive to the grocery store. You had a killer reading month! Several of your reads are on my TBR and I’m excited to see you’ve given them a seal of approval. Makes me even more excited!


  11. okay first of all — 20 books, you’re AMAZING!! second of all, i’m super happy to see that you loved clap when you land, all boys aren’t blue, and girl, serpent, thorn — those are definitely some of my most anticipated books this season! also seeing the naturals made a whole rush of reading memories from pre-2017 come flooding in lmao, i’m glad you liked it!! i hope you have a great month ❤


  12. I feel you SO MUCH on not having a sense of time anymore! Time has no meaning anymore and honestly a day can feel like a year with everything going on. I sincerely hope you are taking care of yourself and your mental health – times are really difficult, especially with the loss of our routines.

    You read SO MUCH in April, and I’m glad you had so many good reads! I am picking up The Boyfriend Project soon and am excited.


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