To sum-up : September & October 2020

I skipped yet another monthly wrap-up in September so we’re back again with a double wrap-up, folks!


Again, it’s two months, but you get the gist. The reason is pretty simple. Okay, there’s more like two reasons and here they are:

  1. I hit burn out. More like it hit me pretty heard. The end of the September and the first two weeks of October were pretty rough, not gonna lie. I burnt out, my anxiety was pretty high because of it and I fell behind on most things, which…just made my anxiety and burnout feeling worse. So I took a few days completely offline to get things in order and when I came back, I tried to not make myself do things I didn’t feel like doing so I simply…didn’t write the September wrap-up.
  2. I am kind of bored with writing wrap-up posts. I still want to do them mind you, but I need to figure out a way to spice things up and make it more fun for me to read, so it stops feeling like a chore.

Work wise, things have been better. Not safer because working conditions are still the same if not worse because i’m way more exposed now. But since switching to my ObGyn rotation, the work environment feels more welcoming and the team is leagues better than it was in my Neonatology one which almost made me almost hate a specialty that I adore because of how toxic the vibes were and how useless I felt, but oh well. Which shows just how important work environments are. On the flip side, I’m not a huge fan of ObGyn, but since I work in a good environment, have specific tasks that keep me busy all day, I’m actually liking it way more than I thought I would. So even though it’s pretty exhausting, it’s the good kind of tired that comes with the end of a long but fulfilling day. Plus, because of covid, I only work a shift every 6 days so I have plenty time to recover and do other things.

Having more time means that I decided to get back into writing and I have a story idea I’m super passionate about, which I’m keeping under wraps for now because I’m scared I’ll lose momentum and it won’t pan out haha, but as soon as I’m more secure in it, maybe I’ll share more? I don’t know. Writing has always been such a vulnerable thing for me so it makes me nervous. I’m not doing classic Nanowrimo but I’m going to be using the website to build a writing habit and track my outlining/plotting/research progress and maybe if I’m done with those before the end of the month, actual writing too.


In September, I read 9 books and 2905 pages, which is the lowest both books and pages wise. I wasn’t too happy about that but it’s understandable considering that’s when burn out was brewing right under the surface. I read some great books though, so I can’t complain too much Here’s the September wrap-up:

In October, I read the same amount of books so 9, but I ended up with 3369 pages, so longer books. Most of which I read in the last two weeks to be quite honest. Since that’s when I started feeling better/had more time to read.

  • The Fifth Season – This was the most mind-boggling book I have ever read. As well as the most brilliantly crafted. I devoured it. If the other books go the same way, the series will definitely become a new all time favorite.
  • You Had Me at Hola – A cute and entertaining romance. Not my favorite thing I’ve ever read but I had fun while reading it and I loved the family aspects.
  • Black Sun – Fan-fucking-tastic. Another brilliant fantasy book, inspired by pre-colombian Americas. The queer-affirming world, the characters, the magic, the politics. It was very engrossing and I flew through it.
  • A Deadly Education – This was a DNF. Great concept, an absolute failure of an execution. I was bored to tears. And that’s without mentioning the gross appropriation and (mis)representation.
  • Bestiary – One of the most bizarre books I’ve ever read. Loved the writing, liked some of the story, the rest made no sense to me whatsoever, but it was overall an interesting read. Definitely not for everyone.
  • The Only Good Indians – Another bizarre book, this one I enjoyed much more though. A morbidly fascinating horror story, rooted in Indigenous American culture and sprinkled with social commentary.
  • The Project – I fucking LOVED this one. I have a very intense interest in cults, how they operate and prey on people and this book hit that sweet spot for me. I was sucked into it, gaping, in turns stressed, angry and disgusted with everything happening.
  • Daring and the Duke – Probably one of my favorite historical romances!! I loved the dynamics, the founds family, the backstory, the fierce heroine, the redeemed hero. All of it!!
  • The Colours that Blind – This was a surprising one. I didn’t know what to expect going into it and I didn’t know if I would enjoy it, but I did. I love the intergenerational story, the parallels drawn between the two timelines and the issues discussed within a beautifully written albeit brutal story.

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Pretty much same old same old. Since I have a hiatus coming up in December, I won’t be doing anything out of the ordinary or different, and I will be taking it easy until then. That being said, I’m cooking up quite a few exciting things for after hiatus/in the new year that I am extremely excited about and that I hope you like! I’m also nervous shitless about them but more excited than anything else.

I will also be done with my 6th year of medschool on the 23rd which is SO surreal because come 7th year, I will have my own stamp so I will be ~legit~ and that’s both humbling and intimidating. I can’t wait but it’s also a huge responsibility that I can only hope to be worthy of. So I plan on using that time off to work on all the things I have cooking up, as well as reply to the HUGE backlog of blog comments I have accumulated. But since I already have a lot more time already, I’m hoping to start replying to all future comments in a timely manner and not let the backlog become even more huge.

I am back to doing TBR videos and I made a game out of it. The video isn’t ready just yet but it should be up tomorrow so keep an eye out for that!

That’s it until next time.

Did you read any of these books? What did you think of them? What books did you read this month?

Oh! And if you have any posts you think I should check out, leave them in the comments.

Hope you enjoyed, write to you soon.



5 thoughts on “To sum-up : September & October 2020

  1. I hope things calm down soon, this pandemic has taken a big toll on medical professionals, you guys have been the rock and support and I’m so thankful for that. Thank You Fadwa 💕

    Taking a break is also very important Ana I hope you feel rejuvenated and better after your hiatus 💕

    I haven’t read any books you’ve mentioned but most of them are on my TBR, especially The Fifth Season, it sounds amazing


  2. Here’s hoping things calm down for you soon. At least you can work in a better work environment, I know just how much a difference it makes. I’ll admit that I’ve not read any of the books in your wrap up, but I’ve seen so much praise for Black Sun and it sounds like everything I love in a good fantasy. Take care. Hopefully, the rest of the year is kind to you. 😀


  3. I have not read Deadly Education by Naomi Novik, because it involved a deadly school which intimidated me. I did read her “Uprooted” which is a retelling of Beauty and the Beast crossed with a Russian folk tale. It does have some issues of attempted rape, and a redeemed (but not saved) bad guy, but it was overall a good book about a girl who becomes “uprooted” discovers she has magic and needs to save her best friend, her community and royal children, etc. This book has more with her native culture and may be a better read than Deadly Education. It is longer, but mostly enjoyable…if enchanted forests are your thing. (P.S. I live in a forested area, but the trees are kinder here…).


  4. Ah The Broken Earth series is probably going to end up being my all time favourite series as well. I adored The Fifth Season. Probably the most brilliantly crafted book I have ever read.

    I am planning to read both Black Sun and Bestiary in November, so I was happy to read your thoughts on both of those.

    Happy November!


  5. Congratulations on finishing year 6 of med school! And best of luck with your story!

    I totally understand about burnout and feeling like I can’t keep up with everything I want to or think I should do. So far, I’ve learned to give myself a lot of grace and to not make any big decisions after 6:00 pm., because I frequently feel less panicked in the morning.

    I love your facial expressions, especially when you were talking about the super unsexy sex scenes in Temporary Wife Temptation. Bad sex scenes are the woooorst!

    Best of luck with your upcoming projects!


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