How Books helped me acknowledge my trauma

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In today’s programming is another episode of “Fadwa overshares”. I would say I’m sorry but uuuuhhh… I really am not. I love pouring my heart into the virtual pages of my blog because I recently (as in the last year) found out that it’s extremely cathartic for me to just put it all into words without necessarily talking to anyone in particular. But also, in the hopes that someone who needs these words reads them and feels less alone. So I’ll continue doing what I do, and I hope you all get something out of it.

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My New Adult Frustrations

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My reading journey was a weird one. I started off just like any kid, devouring children’s books from age zero (my mom used to read to me) to age nine, then I transitioned to middle grade until age twelve. So far, so good, right? Well, from there I jumped straight into new adult and adult romance books. YEP. No young adult novels, whatsoever, those weren’t available to me so I went to the next category that I had at hand and at a reasonnable price (my mom also had a small collection at home that I read and could use later to exchange at the secondhand bookstore). I think I read hundreds of romance novels between age 12 and 16. There were days when I’d read two in one day. Continue reading

Pairing up Books I love with Songs I’m trash for

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If there’s one thing that’s constant in my life (more like two things), it’s books and music. You all already know how much I love books because this is… you know, a book blog. But music isn’t something that I talk about a lot on here but not a day goes by when I’m not blasting something, whether I’m driving, blogging, taking bookish photos or whatever else. The only time I can’t listen to music is while reading. So I thought it would be a great idea to pair books I love with some of my favourite songs that I feel like fit either the themes, the characters, or just the general vibe of the book.
Just a warning though, this could contain spoilers to the books mentioned. (Specifically Simon vs. and Evelyn Hugo)

1- Want – Cindy Pon

Cindy pon - #1 WantFinding a song for this book was so incredibly easy. In fact, it was so easy that I had TWO songs I just couldn’t choose between. They just both scream Want to me. The first is Radioactive by Imagine Dragons. You can’t tell me that after reading the book and listening to the song, you don’t think they’re a match made in heaven. They both center a world plagued by human destruction, especially this part here, which reminds me a lot of what the mei (lower class, people without protective suits to shield them from pollution) go through on a daily basis.

 

I’m waking up to ash and dust
I wipe my brow and I sweat my rust
I’m breathing in the chemicals

The the second song is Youth by Shawn Mendes and Khalid. This entire song is a whole ass mood, not only for today’s world but also for the world our characters live in and how our main squad (as well as every other young mei, I’m sure) feels in the book. I don’t really know how to put it into words, but if you listen to the song, you’ll get it.

2- The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo – Taylor Jenkins Reid

Taylor Jenkins Reid - The Seven Husbands of Evelyn HugoThere are so many songs I feel could apply to this book but one I personally love is When You Sleep by Mary Lambert, it’s such a soft song and just reminds me of the type of relationship Evelyn and Celia have. The tentativeness of the beginning, the part where Mary Lambert says “You politely asked to take a walk with me, I would’ve married you there underneath the trees” as well as the chorus, which can be interpreted in a way that embodies their on and off and on again relationship.

3- We are Okay – Nina Lacour

Nina Lacour - We Are OkayHeavy by Linkin Park. Need I say more? No? Well I’m a rambler so I will definitely say more. Heavy is the perfect depiction I feel of what it was like for Marin to be stuck inside her head, unable to move on or move away from spiraling thoughts. The main character in We are Okay deals with depression on her own, the best way she knows how to, and dealing with things that happened in her life that just feel like too much to carry alone but still can’t bring herself to reach out to anyone. Both the book and the song gave me similar feelings when consuming them as media.

4- When the Moon was Ours – Anna-Marie McLemore

anna-marie-mclemore-when-the-moon-was-oursHow Would you Feel by Ed Sheeran IS SUCH A SAM AND MIEL SONG AND IF YOU DON’T AGREE it’s okay you’re entitled to your opinion. But I just feel like the song encompasses perfectly how much they love each other, the “How would you feel, if I told you I loved you?” IS SO THEM, especially for Sam who worships the ground Miel walks on but he struggles so much with himself that he isn’t sure he is worthy of her. And since they are best friends who fall for each other makes the “I’ll be taking my time, spending my life, falling deeper in love with you” all the more meaningful. I’m just soft for this song and this book, okay?

5- How to Make a Wish – Hold me by the Heart

Ashley Herring Blake - How to Make a WishHold me by the Heart by Kehlani is the song I’m choosing for this one. This book makes me cry. This song makes me cry. And that’s all you need to know. No, I’m just kidding. The song talks about having trauma and meeting someone who helps you heal (not someone who fixes you, obviously) or at least that’s the way I read it. And that’s an ongoing theme in How to Make a Wish as well, both Grace and Eva are dealing with their fair share of baggage, Grace with her abusive mother and Eva with the grief from her mom’s death so they meet and fall in love as well as support each other through their respective healing journeys, eventhough it’s hard and messy sometimes and they’re definitely not perfect and end up messing up.

6- The Speaker – Traci Chee

Traci Chee - #2 The SpeakerI’m Yours by The Script doesn’t remind me of the book as a whole, it rather makes me think of the romance whenever I listen to it, especially with how Archer feels toward Sefia. He’s dealing with so much trauma (that he has bad PTSD from, the rep is amazing) and was forced to do so many terrible things that he feels dirty and unworthy of her love. And the fact that she just never gives up on him makes this relationship so special to me because she just keeps on showing him that she’s there for him, for all of him, broken pieces included and that just makes me want to sob.

7- Girl Out of Water – Laura Silverman

Laura Silverman - Girl out of Water.jpgThe Letter by Kehlani is about an absent mom and what that does to a person. It’s, just like the title says ,a letter Kehlani wrote to her mom and it’s absolutely heartbreaking. That makes the song a perfect fit for Girl out of Water in which Anise deals, among other things, with the impact the fact that her mom was never in her life had on her and trying to work through behaviours and thought patterns that she adopted after her mother left. Everything about this book is just so real and beautiful but I thought this part in particular is so well done and one of the book’s strengths.

8- Like water – Rebecca Podos

Rebecca Podos - Like WaterStrangers by Halsey and Lauren Jauregui reminds me SO much of the relationship between Savannah and Leigh and I can’t…really explain why? I think it’s just the messiness of it and the fact that at one point they absolutely tear each other apart and go back to being strangers. I think that just the general vibe of the both the book and song are quite similar which is why I always relate one to the other.

9- Simon vs. the Homosapiens Agenda – Becky Albertalli

Becky Albertalli - Simon vs The homo sapiens AgendaI bet you can guess which song I’m gonna choose for this one and if you don’t, you’re going to see how obvious my choice is in one second. I’m pairing Simon vs. with Kiss the Boy by Keinan Lonsdale. First of all, it’s a gay as hell song and second Keinan is the actor who plays Bram in the movie adaptation Love, Simon. So it really can’t get any more perfect that this.

10- Mirage – Somaiya Daud

Somaiya Daud - #1 MirageThis one doesn’t take much effort on my part. If/when you read Mirage you know there’s this arabic song that Amani and Idriss talk about in the book that they both hold near and dear to their hearts and that at the very end, we get a few lyrics from it. Well, that song is called Lama Bada Yatathana by Lara Chamamyan and I adore it SO MUCH, it’s absolutely breathtaking both in lyrics and melody.


That’s it until next time.

Do you have a song that Always reminds you of a book? Or vice versa?

Do you have any songs you think I would like based on the ones I shared here?

Hope you enjoyed, write to you soon.

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Most Anticipated Releases of 2018: July – December

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It’s the last week of June (…How?) so it’s time to share with you all the books I’m highly anticipating for the second half of the year. This one is a little shorter than the one I did for the first six months simply because I have no books for December (not many release during the month, and the ones that do that I am aware of, don’t really interest me) and also because somehow quite a few books I was excited for got pushed to early 2019 *wails*, off the top of my head, this happened to AT LEAST 3 of my most anticipated releases. Anyway, here goes my list: Continue reading

Not the Girls You’re Looking for Blog Tour: Review + Author Interview

 

Not the Girls You're Looking for

Publication date : June 19th, 2018

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Publisher : Feiwel and Friends | MacMillan

Genre : Young Adult | Contemporary

Page Count: 336

Synopsis : Lulu Saad doesn’t need your advice, thank you very much. She’s got her three best friends and nothing can stop her from conquering the known world. Sure, for half a minute she thought she’d nearly drowned a cute guy at a party, but he was totally faking it. And fine, yes, she caused a scene during Ramadan. It’s all under control. Ish.
Except maybe this time she’s done a little more damage than she realizes. And if Lulu can’t find her way out of this mess soon, she’ll have to do more than repair friendships, family alliances, and wet clothing. She’ll have to go looking for herself.
(From Goodreads)

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My Favourite Reads of 2017

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So this year is coming to an end and what that means is that I, as well as many bloggers out there, will use the opportunity to scream about all the books we loved this year and considering how good of a reading year I had, imagine how hard it was for me to narrow it down to a reasonnable number (as I write this intro I have no idea what books/how many books are going to be included, so wish me luck). Just like last year, there’s no way in hell, I’m gonna be ranking these, it’s just impossible for my brain to choose one over the other. Mostly. Eventhough I do have a preference for some of these. Continue reading

Most Anticipated Releases of 2018: January – June

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So…we’re at the last month of the year and you know what that means? A WHOLE BUNCH OF BOOK LISTS !!! So, for the first one I’m going with my most anticipated releases of the first half of the year because I refuse to choose favourites while there still is a few weeks to go. And I chose to do just the first half of the month for two reasons:

  1. I got 32 books for those 6 months alone.
  2. Most books from the second half don’t have covers yet.

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6 Things Diverse Books added to my Life

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I wanted to save this post for my second blog anniversary in two months which then roughly coincides with my one year anniversary of reading mostly diverse books (around 80-90% of my reading is diverse in one way or another) but then realized I’m gonna be on Hiatus at that time (exams, pray for me) and since next month will be dedicated to all the end of the year posts (I’M SO EXCITED!!!) then this seemed like the right time to just gush about all the things diverse books have added to my life, which are… a lot. Continue reading

Books are more than “Just Books”

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I’ve been a reader since… as long as I can remember. I truly can’t pinpoint when I learnt how to read. My mom is the reason I love the stories held inside books so much, she used to read to me every night, probably even before I could understand what she was saying haha, until one day I picked up the book from her hands and started reading for myself. Since then, I can’t remember a time -besides my 2 years long slump- when I wasn’t reading a book. Continue reading

#TheReadingQuest Wrap-up post

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#TheReadingQuest is a kickass video game inspired reading challenge created by Aentee @ Read at Midnight than run from August 13th to September 10th and today marks the official end of this amazing kick-ass reading challenge since yesterday was the last day. And I’m kinda proud of myself for posting this on time haha, it’s prescheduled since today is my first day back to classes and rotations *shudders*. Continue reading