#DiverseBookbloggersDiscuss: How ADHD affects my reading

 

Ceillie.pngHello guys !

I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was 12, but the diagnosis didn’t really surprise me, or my parents. I’ve always been impulsive, overeager, and regularly either hyperfocused or unfocused. I would often tell people “oh yeah, I know how to do this thing,” whether that thing was playing the guitar, swimming, or reading aloud. It often got me into trouble, and embarrassed when it was proven I couldn’t actually do the thing I said I could. Not being able to swim as well as I said I could as a kid meant that I had several very unsafe experiences in the deep end of pools.

Those traits follow me into every part of my life, and affect how I read more than you might think.

Hyperfocus makes me a dedicated reader, when I can focus on anything at all. I read at a comparatively high speed, and often tune everything else out when I get really into a book. I love it when I can hyperfocus on a book, because I absorb everything I can from that novel. That book would almost always be a book that I fall in love with. Being able to hyperfocus on it is often the sign of a book that would get a five star rating, back when I used to rate with stars on my blog. Now that it’s foxes, they still tend to be the books I love more than others.

However, I can’t always control what books I can hyperfocus, or even just plain focus, on. If there’s a lot of sound nearby, or the texture of my clothes are wrong, or I’m not in the right reading position, it often leaves me as unfocused as a bored toddler. It also means that if I’m not enjoying a book, I can rarely bring myself to pick it back up.

One thing that I do to help myself focus on a book is read whatever it is as an audiobook. Audiobooks don’t help me focus on them if I’m not doing something else, but if I’m driving or knitting, things that don’t require a ton of brainpower, it’s just enough to make my brain kick into gear and be able to do both things with relative ease. Audiobooks are also helpful because of my day job schedule, but that’s a discussion for another post.

My impulsivity also helps, and hurts, my reading. It leads me to pick up books that are probably not the best choices for me, or to not fully read the synopsis (or the publisher name) before I request them as a reviewer. This means that I read books by publishers that I know I won’t enjoy – or I would have known, had I, you know, read the name before requesting. (I’m looking at you Jessica Kingsley Publishers. I’m looking directly at you.) However, on occasion, it also leads me to books that I wouldn’t have thought I’d love, but I actually do. It’s both great and terrible. I also pick up books based on their cover art on occasion, thanks to my graphic design background in college, and love of good art. Give me a good cover, and I’m at least fifty percent more likely to pick up a book. It’s just how my brain works.

Overeagerness is my favorite trait when it comes to reading. Overeagerness is what leads me to overbook myself on my blog schedule and do as much as I do, and I love it. Even when it gets to be too much, I love to be busy, and to multitask on whatever I’m working on. This does tend to lead me to overwork myself, but I love what I do – if I didn’t, I wouldn’t be able to do as much as I do.

Multitasking also leads me to be a regular presence on Twitter, even when I shouldn’t be. However, I use an app called Forest to help keep me off of Twitter when I absolutely need to be working on something else – like, say a blog post, or an article for work. I also have to keep myself organized with a couple of different apps that you can find in this post.

I’ve seen a lot of people say they’d look for a cure for their learning disabilities, or their mental health issues, and I can’t say that I blame them. I just know I wouldn’t, because this is part of who I am and always will be. And I love that.


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Book blogger @ Candid Ceillie

Ceillie is a county reporter by day, and blogger whenever she gets the chance. She is the parent of two furballs – a cat named Luke and a dog named Moose, and the soon-to-be-wife of a great guy. She’s queer, neurodivergent and cisgender, and she loves to meet and support new people, and can most often be found on Twitter at @CandidCeillie.

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